So last night I was dreaming again... My pregnancy dreams are sometimes very vivid.
Scott and I were in the house (not actually our house but one that was supposed to be)... and there was this gray/white cat in the bedroom... I asked Scott who's cat that was... he thought it was Monti. But it definitely wasn't Monti. It was a nice enough cat so I didn't want to get rid of it, but I did wonder where it came from.
Then there was another cat. Again, gray/white, but this one had more white. Who's cat is that and where did it come from? Scott though it must have come from outside and needed a safe place to stay. Ok.
And finally, a 3rd stray cat in the bedroom? I remember thinking, "This is too many cats." But somehow, we managed. I took good care of all 5 cats in the house.
And then the dream expanded.
I guess I thought that if I was able to take care of 5 cats, that running a little day care out of my home was a natural next step. I was still pregnant in my dream, so mind you, had no real experience dealing with babies. But somehow I advertised to start this little in-home day care.
On the first day, moms started showing up with their little ones. Seemed like in my dream most of the kids must have been like 2-3 yrs old because they were all running around and yelling wildly. At first there were just a few moms and kids, but then more and more kept arriving. Finally there must have been like 20 moms with their kids and the scene was a complete state of chaos. All the moms were staring at me to see how I would control the situation but I just stood there like a deer in headlights with no clue what to do.
Finally, in a state of total panic, I just broke down and told all the moms that they needed to take their kids home because I was completely unqualified to care for all these kids. All the moms nodded their heads in agreement and one of them actually came up to me and told me that they were all wondering when I would come to the realization that I couldn't handle this situation... that I had no business trying to run a day-care because I didn't know how to handle kids.
I woke up feeling completely inadequate. Oh boy. Let the panic begin.