Thursday, December 31, 2009

Moving On

Well first off, thank you all for your support. It really does mean a lot.

I know a lot of women don't share pregnancy news until after 13 weeks... I guess with the thinking that if something goes wrong they won't have to share the way I just did. But honestly, if I had to go through all this in secret without anyone knowing that wouldn't make it any easier. In fact, I think it would make it worse, because then you'd just be suffering in silence in your own head. I couldn't do it that way. But I guess I'm probably a bit more 'open' than most people.

So aside from the bleeding (ugh, it's like I just gave birth- similar amount of bleeding that I'm still having 4 days later) and some crampy feelings, I'm doing ok. I've found the best thing to do is to exercise some (I know doc said keep it light so I'm not going hard- but it's my therapy so I can't imagine just sitting around doing nothing but wallowing in self-pity this week). And spending time with Moana is the best right now. She's just such an amazing shining light in my world... her bright smile is infectious and she's so innocent and fun. 14 months is a great age and I can see how it'll just get better (for a while at least) as she becomes even smarter and more capable.

So here it is, the last day of 2009. I'm tempted to say Good Riddance to this year... but when I really look back, it wasn't a bad year. It just had a crappy ending. But until early November when all this turmoil started, it really was a pretty incredible year. It started with a 2 month old infant who wasn't capable of much other than eating and sleeping and crying and pooping... this year I got to watch her grow and develop into this cool little person who I really like hanging out with.

I had a good bit of success with triathlon this year too. Qualified for Kona at the Hawaii 70.3 in May and then stayed married while IM training (which is a feat in itself!) and then managed an Ironman PR in Kona about 2 weeks before Moana turned one. There's just no complaining about that!

I started a coaching business that I truly enjoy and have a passion for. I'm loving working with my athletes! Four of them are racing the 70.3 on the Big Island which is June 5 this year... I was bummed thinking that I wouldn't be there racing with them, but now it looks like I will. I sent my entry in yesterday. I am really looking forward to that. I love that race. :) And another one of my athletes,Regina, is racing her first 70.3 that weekend as well at Mooseman, so almost all of us have our big races on the same weekend. Cool.

So I'll take the bad with the good. 2009, for the most part, was a good year. It can't all be a bed of roses, you know. But as long as I got to smell some along the way, I'm happy.


X-Country2 said...

You really have had a (mostly) amazing year. Here's to hoping 2010 is even better!!

N.D. said...

a good bit of success? You had an AMAZING year. You have been so inspiring. I almost want to do an ironman because of you! I'm sorry that it ended badly, and you are right about sharing it and having to be private because when it happened to me, it sucked to have it on my shoulders and no one knew.

DR said...

You have a such a great attitude! All the best for 2010!

Regina said...

I'm glad you are on the mend. I too had a crappy year ending although I wont even try to put it in the same category as yours. I'm anxious and excited for a new year! One of the high points of 2009 for me was hooking up with you. I cannot tell you how amazing this journey is for me so far and I couldn't do it without you, thank you!

Thanks for the nod in your post, I wish I were racing with you all! Let the great adventure continue in 2010; Happy New Year!!

Jennifer Harrison said...

Um, if you were going to say that 2009 was not a good year (in general), I was going to catch the next plane out to Hawaii and slap you silly. LOL

Happy 2010 - !!!!! It will be a great year!!!!

Katie A. said...

You really had a good year, and again, thank you for sharing. I know I have said this before, but you are a really srong woman and I always really enjoy reading your blogs and supporting you. I hope your week goes better. :)